Friday, 27 May 2011

Letter To My Father

Dear Dad,

I'm a dreamer. My head is in the clouds most of the time; and because my head's in the clouds, I always find myself looking up at the sky. And for the last few weeks, every time I look up, I think of you.

I never got the chance to know you, and it aches that I wasn't afforded even one memory to claim as my own. I turned 21 last week and you didn't get to see it, just like you won't get to see me graduate, or move out, or get married, or have babies. We both miss out on a lifetime of memories, and though it made me angry for a long time, I've accepted it.

I want you to know that you've left a hole that can never be filled, but I've never felt short of father figures. I have the most amazing uncles, and the ole Stepdad is a truly amazing man. You would thank him from the bottom of your heart for the way he has taken care of this family. And mum, of course, is perfection. She is the definition of strength and beauty, and you would be so proud of her.

I wonder what life would be like if you were still here. I pray that you are truly at peace. I wonder if you are looking down on us all, guiding us through life. But most of all, I wonder if you're proud.of us.

You are forever loved, forever missed, and forever defining who I am. I will keep looking for you among the clouds.

Leighan

5 comments:

  1. This is the most beautiful piece of yours that I have read. Its honest and vulnerable but yet displays so much strength. Stay honest it makes you the wonderful person you are
    xxxx

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  2. Lele reading these words that have clearly come from your heart demonstrates the girl you truly are..both strong and special in each and every way
    loves xx

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  3. this is amazing babe!! im sure he is so proud of all your accomplishments. you are a star. love u long time xx

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  4. I am in tears after reading this beautiful piece of yours.. Well done and stay strong and loving! xx

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  5. Beautiful! Heart warming, and honest. There is such a purity of emotion in your words that made me feel every word. Very powerful.
    x

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